Can you f-u-c-kin’ tell me how to be insensitive?

I feel hurt and misunderstood.. two awful combinations that creates millions of bad thoughts. Is it a sin to care for someone deeply? I guess yes since it gives birth to attachment that causes misery.

 

I confess that I am uber sensitive and that makes me so vulnerable, which I really hate about myself. It’s like one way of admitting that I am a weak person because I am easily affected by other’s action. Oh crap! I am nearly close to a tv. I can be manipulated by a remote control. One touch of a button, then I can be like the protagonist of a soap opera that I detest watching. 

 

How would you know if you are over acting to a situation? Particularly to an onionskin like me?

 

 

A friend told me that I am OA from a forwarded quote.. that friend who is recently broken-hearted..the same person who calls me late at night, whom I talk to till the wee hours of the morning whining about her 6 years failed relationship.. that person who admits that she can’t sleep for days or cries profusely in hours..a friend who spammed my phone inbox with heartsick messages..

 

I already forgot the exact message of that particular friend but it fueled my already nympholeptic state about my rarely used phone unresponsive buttons earlier, when I tried calling the bank. 

 

I told her not to forward me again with that kind of ‘melodramatic quote’. S-h-I-t! I really forgot the exact word but with what I understand, the quotes implies; “If your love already have someone else, go ahead and love her/him even more; true love is really like that and this will make you happy..”

 

What the F-u-c-k is that?! Right?! How can you move on if you cater those kind of crappy limiting beliefs? I abhor those kinds of messages that continuously encircle us.

 

 

False: We will only be happy in a love relationship with only one person whom is our destiny or soul mate.

 

Fact: We can be happy with multiple persons, someone whom we are compatible with. (We are billions for Pete’s sake!) Heck! We can still be happy even when we are single!!!

 

 

 

 

FYI.. I never wish to be a leading character of a melodrama.. never! Even in my daydreams!

And oh.. Martyrs get burned at the stake!

 

(After I have wrote this, I suddenly realized that my reaction might be really went overboard because the truth is I am sick and tired of the whining.. and subconsciously my  way of getting rid of those bothersome is by over reacting so my friend will get angry and will stop bugging me..

 Well..if that’s the case then my evil mind achieved it’s  purpose. My friend already removed me from her distribution list..  )