This is the beginning of a long confession. I will try to be honest at all cost on what I have seen, felt, thought and did. I know that this will be hard especially to scrutinize oneself. I am not doing this to be understood by others. I might gain some sympathy or ridicule but this does not concern me (and I hope won’t affect me). My main objective is to understand myself and to be a better being. I wanted to live and not just existing. I don’t want to simply turn oxygen into a carbon dioxide.. a consumer finding a next fix.. a matter occupying a space.
I don’t want to indulge myself in the dream world anymore. I want to end my escapism. Escape from being an Escapist. I want to know why I hate waking up and deal with my reality. I no longer want to hide in illusion.
And the first step is to be honest.. so this are my confessions..
